I don’t have a direction. On this blog, in life, in my career. I don’t feel like I know what I want sometimes. I know what I like in life generally, I’m not unhappy. There just aren’t any plans for the future. This is where that changes, first with changing the direction of this blog. Which will now be about finding myself, finding my direction. In life and in a career.
I have a lot to offer, but it’s scary making a decision. I’m not a typical office person. I don’t want to be cramped into a cubicle. Finding an alternative route to support myself is a must, doing so would definitely make me happier. Being a communications major, I’d rather be communicating one-on-one with others, not creating plans and proposals or doing presentations.
It’s been 6 years, a transfer to a school that wasn’t the right fit, a few meltdowns, and finally graduation is 1 week away. One problem: I don’t know what I want to do with the rest of my life. In 7 days, I will have a bachelor’s degree in Public Relations. Yet, that’s not what a I want to do. PR isn’t my passion, art and creativity is.
Since I have had to work throughout my college career, I’ve lost most of my free time to explore my interests, my hobbies, my passions. I know the things I like to do, but are they things I’d like to work into a career? How would I even go about making a career of them? This is completely normal for most college graduates, but I never have anticipated that this would be my reality.
There’s some options I’ve considered recently, a career using my creativity is the goal. Art has always been an interest, something I have always done throughout my life. I could see it happening, but are my skills strong enough? That might just be my lack of confidence talking, but that’s a different story for a different day.
This past semester, I’ve been writing posts for the blog of the club I belong to. Writing is another source of enjoyment and has spurred an interest in redesigning this blog.
During my time re-finding myself, I’m going to start getting back to my interests. Find what it is I need to do to work through this. Going full time at my work will allow me to pay bills and live, but I’m going to use this time to take a few classes, make some embroidered pieces and repurpose some furniture. This is where I’ll document my journey and try to find some progress to what makes me happy.